Wednesday, August 06, 2014

This blog has become my voice. The voice I will never say out loud. I never could say this stuff out loud. It makes me feel better to write it down, and let it go. I don't want anyone to read it, I would be soooo a shame. Being a women is hard, being a woman that is 53 is hard. I love the Lord and know he loves me but sometime I just need to vent. If you run across this blog and think I am a un- happy person. I am very happy. I am human and a woman. It all works out in the end. Life is good but sometimes I just need to vent.

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

Can you seriously tell me you are my friend and do not know I have been going to WW for the last 8 weeks. Can you not look at me and see I have been losing weight. My attitude has been so much better and I am happier. Do you mean to tell me that you have not noticed. What kind of friend are you? Do not bring me donuts. Do not sabotage me. I will not let you bring me down. 

Sunday, May 25, 2014

3 Sunday's in a row

Today I was in a meeting till after 4
I called home
I am on my way
walked in....
I cooked
put a load on clothes in
He sat in the same place the whole time.
When he calls
I am on my way
I start cooking dinner
Why didn't he?
3 Sunday's in a row
I am upset
Not liking Sunday's anymore.
I don't like feeling like this

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Happy Mothers Day!

Sometimes men get to relaxed in their marriage.
Mine has.
No Happy Mother's Day
No gift
No thank you for all you do
Nothing
Dear Daughter
got a text
Happy Mother's Day
Well. I need more.
I need to be appreciated
Show me, tell me
on this day anyway

Sunday, May 04, 2014

Sometimes......I could scream

Life is hard......
Marriage is hard......
Children is hard.......
Being a 50+ woman is down right impossible
to have a normal life
to keep from driving  your husband crazy
to understanding your adult daughter.
I need a vacation
from it all.
But it would still be here when I get home.
So cry cry cry and then put on my big girl panties and deal with it all.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Weekend mindset

Saturday- ran to B'ham
practice at 9am
back to shop
went and looked at fridge
for DD, used.
LIKED
Bought
Hauled it to house,
She has plans, needs to go
.when will u be finished dad
Ungrateful Child.
I am done
________________________

It was a wonderful Sunday-
I am now Badoura in Daughters of the Nile
Temple 163
In 4 years I will be Queen.
I was on a high.
and then........
the REAL world called.
Fridge not working
Not cooling.
Hub and DD wants me to call and ask if we can return.
Never again.
I am done.
Give me a day.
_____________________

Monday was  a relaxing day.
Slow steady rain, stay home kinda day.
Till the hubby came in and started to pay
taxes for the shop and HE forgot to pay
last month. If I was paying him, to do this.
I would have screamed and fired him.
This will cost me 150.00 extra dollars.
______________________________
This weekend did not go my way.

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

Sad this Morning

There has been another senseless  act of abuse in the news.
 Students have been stabbed in Pa.
I pray for the hurt and their families.
Why does it have to go this far.
I Pray for you.
I hope you tried to find someone that would listen.
I pray you get the help you need.
I wish this didn't happen at all.
I wish you had gotten some help you needed before you had to resort to going to school with a knife.
I pray for our students and their well being.
Parents remember our children and grandchildren watch how we act with difficult situations.
They look up to us and love us and want to be like us.