Weekend mindset

Saturday- ran to B'ham
practice at 9am
back to shop
went and looked at fridge
for DD, used.
LIKED
Bought
Hauled it to house,
She has plans, needs to go
.when will u be finished dad
Ungrateful Child.
I am done
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It was a wonderful Sunday-
I am now Badoura in Daughters of the Nile
Temple 163
In 4 years I will be Queen.
I was on a high.
and then........
the REAL world called.
Fridge not working
Not cooling.
Hub and DD wants me to call and ask if we can return.
Never again.
I am done.
Give me a day.
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Monday was  a relaxing day.
Slow steady rain, stay home kinda day.
Till the hubby came in and started to pay
taxes for the shop and HE forgot to pay
last month. If I was paying him, to do this.
I would have screamed and fired him.
This will cost me 150.00 extra dollars.
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This weekend did not go my way.

Sad this Morning

There has been another senseless  act of abuse in the news.
 Students have been stabbed in Pa.
I pray for the hurt and their families.
Why does it have to go this far.
I Pray for you.
I hope you tried to find someone that would listen.
I pray you get the help you need.
I wish this didn't happen at all.
I wish you had gotten some help you needed before you had to resort to going to school with a knife.
I pray for our students and their well being.
Parents remember our children and grandchildren watch how we act with difficult situations.
They look up to us and love us and want to be like us.

Loving my body

I just read a article about loving your body.
My body is in a Constance battle with my mind.
Skinny people, no let me say instead people that
is not overweight, it is easier to love your body.
I use to love or like the way my freshly painted toes
look in the summer. Now I have a toe fungus.
Took the meds, still look bad.
So there is not one area I like must less love.
Lets start at the top and work my way down.
Hair, too thick, no curl, straight as can be.
Ears stick out-Doty Ears
Eyes- makes me mad I can't see as well as when younger
Nose-too big- hard to breath
Teeth-better now, got false ones on top a few years ago.
Neck- have the fat neck- flappy flappy like paw paw Wells had
Shoulders- none Purse falls of mine
Arms- wings
Lower arms- farmers tan
Breast- sag- hurt-pimples
waist-contains the first roll of many
belly- sagging-hairy-big
butt- biggest of all-more pimples
Back- hurt all the time
thighs- huge
knees-hurt-can't bend, get on my knees to look under anything.
area between my knee and foot. leg cramps-have had 3 shots to
feel better-some days okay-some hurts all day
feet-see above.
There it is in a nut shell........

So I had a dream this morning, About "J". Her whole family came by in a bus to tell us Merry Christmas. They opened the back door of the bus and Kids and Adults stood in a long line out the back of the bus on to a hill to wish us Merry Christmas. How sweet, how unexpected.  I miss what we use to have, it changed along time ago. Life changes friendships, and I don't like it. I have always said I don't like change, and this time it took my bestie.

Emotional few weeks for me.
Still can't believe I will not be able to pick up the
phone and call Barbara,
Mom's 75th Birthday party a success, think we almost
gave her a heart attack.
Back is hurting, done too much.
Seem pictures of mother and thought, she is beautiful even though
she has it all behind her.
 I can get around and maybe one day I
will lose all this weight.
But I am hurting and want to get this weight off.
Terry and I planning a road trip for August.
Can I walk to the Grand cannon, can I hold up
to see the sights.
Will I hold him back.
Crying as I type this.....
Hurting as I type this.....
Lord give me the will power to lose 50 lbs.
Weight has ruled my life too long!