Busy Week....
Need to be prepared.
Busy Friday and Saturday.....
Hope she is happy....
75 years....
WOW!

Saying Goodbye was hard
Listening to her son cry at her funeral was hard
Watching the blank look on her hubby's face was hard
And him saying, I buried her in her wedding dress was hard
Watching her grandsons fill her grave was hard
Thinking I need to tell her that...

is hard
knowing I will have to wait till I see her again is harder

The call....

Today when I got out of the shower,
 I looked at my phone.
 Barbara called.
 there was a message.....
I thought...
she wants me to come by before work.
It was her hubs....
he said.
I lost my sweetie this morning.

Wake Up Call

I wake up and fell the weight and I dread the pain I will feel as I put my feet on the floor.
I dream a lot and I am not fat.
I think, I have been in this "FAT FUNK" for over 2 years.
I can't seem to get my head in the right place.
I don't know why my hubby loves me, puts up with me.
I love him and I know he has to love me to still be here.
I lay in bed and tell myself, Today is the day.
The weight loss starts today.
Will it?

Life's Struggles

Since I haven't written in quite awhile, I don't blame anyone for not reading my blog. I have been a bad bad blogger.
Today I decided to write.....
And the one thing that is always on my mind is my struggle with my weight.
This is thoughts that I deal with each day...
Recently  I have developed a leg pain
 I have had 2 shots.
 Yes! Shots!
 My scales still shows 260 to 268
I hurt all the time.
I now take blood pressure meds.
Friends and I talk about our weight and all the aches and pains.
But do we do anything about it....
Dang it Jimmy......I had weight loss surgery.
Why didn't it work?
Don't answer that, know the answer
I pray for will power....
I over think it...
tomorrow is another day!